Friday

Take This Diet and Shove It!

Yesterday I took the day off.  Every once in a while (I think it is hormonal or something) I have to take a day off.  It is not quite monthly, maybe every few months.  I feel it coming on.  I start to feel like a caged animal.  I am feeling the weight of discipline weighing on me.  My faith in myself starts to break down.  Lucky for me I am getting better at dealing with it. 

In the past I would continue to fight the fight and try to win, but now I know that eventually that fight is a losing battle.  Now I know that when I am feeling this way I tend to stretch my calories each day to its limits - making excuses...lying to myself really.  This can go on and on for a few days or even over a week until I explode with self doubt and loathing. 

Now I have learned to take a day off and yesterday was the day.  I didn't exercise.  I ate doughnuts for breakfast and whatever else I was really craving.  I wouldn't call it a binge, just a day off.  I vegged in bed.  I watched "Forrest Gump" and "P.S. I Love You" and cried my eyes out.  It was great! 

Today I feel so cleansed.  I feel so ready for the battle.  I feel like I do not want to eat another doughnut for a long time.  I feel like I let myself feel the emotions instead of fight them.  I took "should" out of my vocabulary for just one day. 

I caution that if you have too many days off then your are medicating instead of healing.  Only you can tell the difference.  If I was medicating then I wouldn't feel better today.  I would feel guilty.  I do however feel heavy and weak which I am so grateful for.  My body continues to bless me with its needs and desires as I listen and obey.  Thank you body!

Wednesday

To All New Recruits

My cousin wrote me wanting to get some advice on all this stuff.  It got me thinking about things and reflecting on my own journey.  I am so excited for her.  When she makes some changes and looks back at what she has accomplished...well... there is just nothing like it.  There is a famous quote "nothing tastes as good as thin feels" but I would disagree.  Being thin is not it.  It is the goals achieved that really feels good - the conquering of the difficult, thin is just a natural byproduct. 

To those of you out there just starting, I am a little jealous.  You are up for a great ride.  You may have to eat a Skinny Cow instead of your regular three scoops of ice cream but you will love it.  Losing gives you opportunities to gain sooo much.  Good luck to you and let me help in anyway. 

Tuesday

sugaR

Now it is sugars turn for the kicking.  I am not about removing all of these things (salt, sugar etc) from my diet but it does make me rethink me NEED of them.  

In the last 20 years we have increased sugar consumption  to 135 lbs. of sugar per person per year! Prior to the turn of this century (1887-1890), the average consumption was only 5 lbs. per person per year! Cardiovascular disease and cancer was virtually unknown in the early 1900's.  Pretty scary, and here I sit all judgmental toward Captain Phil's smoking habit when I have some habits risking my health as well.  Last night's caramel bread pudding was definitely not the wisest choice.  


Here is a list of ways sugar can affect your health:

  • Sugar can suppress the immune system.
  • Sugar can upset the body's mineral balance.
  • Sugar can contribute to hyperactivity, anxiety, depression, concentration difficulties, and crankiness in children.
  • Sugar can produce a significant rise in triglycerides.
  • Sugar can cause drowsiness and decreased activity in children.
  • Sugar can reduce helpful high density cholesterol (HDLs).
  • Sugar can promote an elevation of harmful cholesterol (LDLs).
  • Sugar can cause hypoglycemia.
  • Sugar contributes to a weakened defense against bacterial infection.
  • Sugar can cause kidney damage.
  • Sugar can increase the risk of coronary heart disease.
  • Sugar may lead to chromium deficiency.
  • Sugar can cause copper deficiency.
  • Sugar interferes with absorption of calcium and magnesium.
  • Sugar can increase fasting levels of blood glucose.
  • Sugar can promote tooth decay.
  • Sugar can produce an acidic stomach.
  • Sugar can raise adrenaline levels in children.
  • Sugar can lead to periodontal disease.
  • Sugar can speed the aging process, causing wrinkles and grey hair.
  • Sugar can increase total cholesterol.
  • Sugar can contribute to weight gain and obesity.
  • High intake of sugar increases the risk of Crohn's disease and ulcerative colitis.
  • Sugar can contribute to diabetes.
  • Sugar can contribute to osteoporosis.
  • Sugar can cause a decrease in insulin sensitivity.
  • Sugar leads to decreased glucose tolerance.
  • Sugar can cause cardiovascular disease.
  • Sugar can increase systolic blood pressure.
  • Sugar causes food allergies.
  • Sugar can cause free radical formation in the bloodstream.
  • Sugar can cause toxemia during pregnancy.
  • Sugar can contribute to eczema in children.
  • Sugar can overstress the pancreas, causing damage.
  • Sugar can cause atherosclerosis.
  • Sugar can compromise the lining of the capillaries.
  • Sugar can cause liver cells to divide, increasing the size of the liver.
  • Sugar can increase the amount of fat in the liver.
  • Sugar can increase kidney size and produce pathological changes in the kidney.
  • Sugar can cause depression.
  • Sugar can increase the body's fluid retention.
  • Sugar can cause hormonal imbalance.
  • Sugar can cause hypertension.
  • Sugar can cause headaches, including migraines.
  • Sugar can cause an increase in delta, alpha and theta brain waves, which can alter the mind's ability to think clearly.
  • Sugar can increase blood platelet adhesiveness which increases risk of blood clots and strokes.
  • Sugar can increase insulin responses in those consuming high-sugar diets compared to low sugar diets.
  • Sugar increases bacterial fermentation in the colon.
Source: www.nancyappleton.com

Many times we point the finger at desserts and sweets but far too often our sugars are hidden.  Like with salt, read the labels and make a better choice.   Small changes are the most sustainable. 

Thursday

I'm non and proud of it ..but wait there is more

So, I am a "Mormon".  Not to be confused with moron (although some would argue for that definition of me as well) - "Mor mon".  I use the quotes because many times Mormon is used with misunderstood ideas, although it is not offensive for you to call us Mormons.  I would say all members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints are Mormons but not all that call themselves Mormons belong to... that long title I just typed. Click on the link if you are confused. Anyway,  why does this have anything to do with food and dieting?  I will tell you:D

One of the things Mormons are known for is their "non" lifestyle - non drinker, smoker etc.  When one tries to sum up this, we call it the word of wisdom, doctrine it tends to have a lot of interpretation so I thought I would refer to it in its entirety here.  Notice the year it was written, 1833.  Over 120 years before the first ideas of tobacco being a health hazard were published in 1952's Readers Digest.  Madmen, it's educational....(you don't know how funny that is).          

It is short.  No tracking system will hunt you down and baptize you in your sleep.  It is just for you to read for yourself - no strings attached.  I'll wait.

So, as you can see, it is a very simple lifestyle plan - eat good foods, sleep, exercise, don't smoke or consume "strong drink".  I mean the calories alone are enough to scare me away.  Four ounces of wine can have anywhere between 77-105 calories.  Now, I know myself and 4 oz would not cut it, better for me to stop at none.  Check out this fitness article on the subject.

There is a lot more to the actual doctrine than the "non"s.  Most of us Mormons need to work on that part.  Are we eating the best foods?  Are we treating our bodies with respect and giving it the rest and exercise it needs?  Pointing fingers does nothing but I would bet we could all improve - me included. 

sALT


 The US government is taking action to lower the recommended salt intake.  Salt is a necessary mineral.  Your kidneys naturally balance the amount of sodium stored in your body for optimal health. When your sodium levels are low, your kidneys essentially hold on to the sodium. When sodium levels are high, your kidneys excrete the excess in urine.  But, if for some reason your kidneys can't eliminate enough sodium, the sodium starts to accumulate in your blood. Because sodium attracts and holds water, your blood volume increases. Increased blood volume makes your heart work harder to move more blood through your blood vessels, which increases pressure in your arteries.1  When you are holding water you are holding weight.  

Water is pretty heavy when you think about it.  I can always tell when I have eaten out.  I feel heavy and a lot of that is from the amount of salt that is used.  I read that they are actually creating laws to reduce salt amounts in processed foods over a period of time - gradually so it will not be a huge change all at once.2  The recommended amount per day is 2300 mg per day with the new changes being no more than 1500 mg per day. I read that we consumer anywhere from 3400 to over 5000 mg per day on average.  Ouch!

Processed foods, or foods already assembled for you (frozen, canned or boxed whether for breakfast, lunch or dinner) are the biggest offenders when it comes to salt.  A can of condensed soup can offer 2225 mg of salt, although per serving the label reads 850 mg.3

So, look for ways to cut your salt intake.  It is vital to our health.  Start to read labels and you will soon be a pro.  Season your foods with herbs like garlic or things like lemon.  Buy frozen veggies and season them with Mrs. Dash.  Small changes can really add up!

Sodium equivalents
1/4 teaspoon salt = 600 mg sodium
1/2 teaspoon salt = 1,200 mg sodium
3/4 teaspoon salt = 1,800 mg sodium
1 teaspoon salt = 2,300 mg sodium
1 teaspoon baking soda = 1,000 mg sodium

1.  http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/sodium/NU00284
2.  http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2010/04/19/AR2010041905049.html
3.  www.myfitnesspal.com

Monday

Truths and Values

Truth is funny.  Today I was driving by a white van and I immediately wondered why they even make white cargo vans because "bad guys" drive them.  (I know.  It was a dumb thought that was just floating in and out of my head as I zoned out while driving)  Then I remembered the reason why I believed such a thing.  It came from my friend when I was about 6 or 7 years old.  It is funny how someone can tell you something and it can stick in your mind like absolute truth. 

One of the most important things I had to do was to figure out my own truths when it comes to weight loss.  That is really the "mind switch" because if it is really your truth then it doesn't matter what it is.  For example, take the low carb fad a few years ago.  The whole concept of low carb/no carb eating sounded completely logical and many people lost weight on those diets.  But, after those truths stopped proving to be wonderful and true, the diets don't have as much success these days.   Your head plays a huge part in your outcome. 

Values are another word to use.  I would write down what I value in eating and what I do not.  For example, date night is something I value.  I will make room for date night in my life, food and all.  However, sugar drinks are not my thing.  A snow cone is last on my lists of delights so my truth is I can turn down a snow cone when offered and not give a hootin' hat about it.  In the past I had not taken the time to evaluate and would have taken the snow cone because I was supposed to like it right?  Cold, tasty.  What more could you want?  If I was eating one sugary drink a day I could cut that out and save at least a couple hundred calories.

If you can create your own set of truths based on your values, you will find ways you can cut down and by cutting down you will lose weight.  It is that simple. 

Thursday

Deep

In the PBS documentary "This Emotional Life" they explore emotions and how they are all vital to a healthy life.  I think we believe differently - sad, anger, fear, guilt and shame are not to be felt.   It is only when we dwell on these emotions that there is a problem. It is not the emotion itself.  Even these negative emotions have their place in our lives.     

Nowadays we get frustrated when we can't reach someone at the moment we want to reach them because we have created fixes for those kinds of frustrations.  My mother used to make flyers for people.  Can you imagine what that was like before computers?  I would not know where to begin.  She would hand write  and draw most of them and any kind of graphics were pictures cut from magazines and glued to the original.  Fancy was black and white printing on a colored piece of paper.

Our too busy lives have very little patience for exploring uncomfort or even having those feelings in the first place.  You might think you don't apply but if you have excess weight on your body, you do.

Try this experiment. (from Geneen Roth) Take a day and look at all the things you do repeatedly.  You know that thing that you do with almost a knee jerk reaction or that is a habit.  It could be eating, it could be checking email or Facebook or whatever thing you do several times a day out of habit - cracking your knuckles, whatever.  For that one day stop just when you are about to do it and analyze your body.  What does your head feel like?  What does your stomach feel like, your chest, your neck, everywhere.?  What emotion would you say you are feeling?  Is it pleasant?  Or, is it uncomfortable?  The why doesn't even matter.

In "This Emotional Life" they explored many different people that were stuck on an emotion  It is very easy to do.  A women was afraid to fly on an airplane - she was stuck on the emotion of fear.  In order to get unstuck she had to first identify what she was feeling in her body.  Her heart would race, her breathing would get faster, her hands would sweat.  After identifying what her body was feeling then they would mimic those things by let's say running.  She would create those feelings again and again while working on her fear.  When it came time to fly she was very nervous and you could see her fear vividly.  Her doctor asked her if it was her pounding heart that bothered her right now or the sweating hands.  She began to calm down as she recognized that what she was actually feeling was familiar and that made all the difference.  Her reactive emotions were not pleasant but they were not going to kill her in fact she needs those emotions to protect her in times of danger.

There are some negative emotions that we would prefer. They are just unpleasant enough to distract us from the bigger, scarier unpleasant.  An uncomfortably full stomach is a great distraction.  A physical pain is much more concrete than an emotion.  On my own scale I do this.  I am still working on it.  Where someone might down a whole pie I eat seven chocolate chip cookies (last night :( I may get it but I haven't got it made)  but if I say "at least I am not her eating a whole pie", I lose the opportunity  for growth.  Last night I felt pain at seven cookies, for her it takes a whole pie.

Earlier in the day I had received some "uncomfortable" news.  When I look back it was about then that I decided tonight would be a dessert night.  At the time I was not thinking I was drowning my sorrows, I didn't even relate them.  The truth is, I was balancing out the day with some good news - what is wrong with that?   But, what happens is we flatten our negative emotions and when you don't have the downs you don't have the ups.  It is a law of nature.  I should have taken a moment and ...cried.  What would have been so wrong with that?  Today that disappointment from the "uncomfortable news" is still there and it will be for a while.  I can handle it.  It is just normal everyday stuff but at its first moment it was scary, very scary. 

So, we have these tricks up our sleeves, these heroic rituals that turn the switch and keep us from unpleasantness.  I would bet that when uncomfortable, your customized uncomfortable, enters the room you too have a triggered reaction to do...something.  Many times it is eat.  We switch gears and then we can disconnect from that uncomfortable.   Sometimes these emotions can be traced back to a particular moment and sometimes they can not.  The point is not always the why,  the point is to start to go through those emotions instead of stifle them. Your experiment can be the same as the woman afraid of flying.  You can get used to feeling those negative emotions and then they are easier to deal with.

Taking time to really feel your emotions can seem trivial and hooky shpooky but it is really important.  All emotions are crucial for our well being - even the negative ones. 

Tuesday

Oprah, How I Love Thee

So just when Two pounds starts to run my life my fairy-godmother, Oprah, saves the day.  Did you see her show yesterday?  If not come by and we will watch it together.  Women Food and God was the topic again - just in time to put me in my place. 

As soon as two pounds or 12 pounds or 50 pounds or more starts to be the reason for anything the point of living is lost; however, the weight ever-so-diligently stays for a long visit.  Eating is about nourishing your body and enjoying life.  One might say that it is very enjoyable to eat a whole batch of chocolate chip cookies.  Is it?  Is the taste and texture of the cookies the whole point or is it great because it takes the place of something else - boredom, anger, frustration or even happiness?  In a quiet room focusing on the cookies and how they taste and their texture, thinking of nothing else, I would bet the whole batch would not even seem appetizing.  I loved when Geneen Roth said you can't "just love food" because when you love something, really love something, you cherish it and take time with it.  You will never convince me that eating a bag of chips in under an hour was love.  It was something else.  It doesn't have to be such a deep concept either - boredom is not a psychological issue.

Take time to listen to your body.  What does it want, really want?       

Monday

Two Stinkin' Pounds

So, still working on that vaca weight.  Summers are so hard for me.  The other day I figured out that in the winter I am freezing all the time and maybe that burns the extra calories for me.  Part of me wants to crank the AC and do a little test but the possibility of a nightmare bill keeps me from playing Mr. Scientist and keeps me sweating as well. 

Losing weight is such a funny thing.  Slow wins the race yet the whole race existed in a heart beat.  The scale teases a few times before it finally rests on a new number only to start the process over again for the next pound.  Two more pounds and I would be dancing and singing.  Two more *!#%t$t& pounds!  Two more pounds that will take at least another two weeks to burn. 

I should say that I haven't "dieted".  I have logged my foods and have stayed under my calories some days and have barely broke even others.  I am choosing to take it slow because I know I am not in a head space right now that would take to it very well.  I keep hoping for a gush of wanting-to-say-no-to-everything-sinful but I know myself well enough to know that I would explode by the end of a week and all my hard work would end up buried in a dozen chocolate chip cookies or maybe oatmeal scotchies or maybe...uh oh.  I will be happy with the two weeks I guess:D

Thursday

Following a 60's Diet?


I have been watching this show.  On demand TV is...crazy awesome.  I watch an episode here and there when I have a free minute.  I miss half of the storyline for some reason or another but that is okay.  This show is not for the Leave it to Beaver types, although it does take place in 1960.  The part I love is the funny way they show us how times have changed.  For instance, the little girl comes in the room with a plastic bag over her head and the mom scolds "I better not find my dry cleaning all over the floor".  Or, the pregnant lady who is having a suburban house wife gossip session while enjoying a cigarette (cigarettes and drinking are a prerequisite for every scene).   Or, at a restaurant the waiter asks "if the lady wants the cream peas or the creamed spinach with that".
 I roll with laughter at this show but it got me thinking.  The 50' and 60's and even the 40's were times of huge change in the American diet.  Canned food and pre-cooked items were a part of everyday meals.  White bread, bacon, Tang for breakfast were staples.1  From scratch was inspired by Julia Child who amazed women with her lavish French cooking adding a stick of butter with every ingredient.  We could never get away with that kind of cooking today.  But, right there is the golden point.  We are not getting away with it more than they were.  Obesity numbers didn't start to take significant parts if society until the early 1990's!   I am sure you got a kick out of this scene from Pleasantville in 1998.


In 1991 the highest obesity rating for a state was 15% - about 1.5 for every 10 people.  In 2008 that number rose to 29% - 1/3 the population is obese, not just fat but obese!2   In the 1960's there was not a shelf at the market that sold "diet food".  Now, diet products are a billion dollar industry, how can that be? It is time to take a good look at yourself.  You know where you are with this challenge.  If fattening foods are not the problem than what is it?  Are we that emotionally starved? I believe that to be a factor, yes.

  The overuse of corn is definitely a factor.  Start reading labels!  High fructose corn syrup was invented in 1957.  In 1975 Americans were averaging 70 pounds of sugar and 4 pounds of HFCS, by 2008 45 lbs of sugar and 39 lbs of HFCS.3  But, pointing your finger at something does nothing.  In 1985 Coke switched from sugar to HFCS - it is cheaper by far.  Don't fall into the same trap.  We spend less on food today, percentage wise, than ever before and the trade off is not worth it.   Make a commitment to be healthy, or at least healthier, one choice at a time.  Spend 20 more cents for the ketchup with no HFCS.  Look for grass fed beef, buy fresh foods more often and read, read, read those labels!  We can't wait for anyone else to fix the problem.  When enough people make these choices then the 20 cents more will be gone.  This is so much more than fitting into your pants.      

1. http://www.foodtimeline.org
2. http://calorielab.com/news/2006/08/30/nibbles-south-ranks-high-in-fattest-state-survey
http://www.wikinvest.com/images/0/04/Obesity_Picture.gif
3.http://www.highfructosecornsyrup.org/2009/08/sugar-vs-corn-syrup-50-years-of-sweet.html
http://motherjones.com/environment/2009/07/sugar-vs-corn-syrup

Tuesday

Return To Silence

I had a great weekend!  The 4th is one of my very favorite holidays.  I get teary at the site of the flag at the beginning of the parade and with the first bang of the fireworks.  I am so grateful to live where I do and to be able to take completely for granted the freedoms I enjoy.  Thank you to all who can't take such things for granted  - I hold you in reverence. 

Today I did something I haven't done it a long time.  I exercised with no distractions.  No TV, music, nothing.  My kids spent the night at their beloved Aunt Kimmie's -thanks Kim.  So, I was able to have the whole time to myself.  I loved it.  There is something about letting your mind go where it wants to go and dwell on what it wants to dwell on.  When life gets crazy and you head feels like it is spinning, try it.  You will sort so many things and feel even more accomplished when you are done. 

Just about 1.5 pounds to go to get back to my normal.  Summers are the hardest for me.  But, I am happy with my effort and that is the most important thing.  

Friday

Interesting Article

http://health.yahoo.net/experts/weightloss/diet-type-or-calories-lost-whats-best-weight-loss

I thought this study was so interesting.  Near the end of the article it talks about how just cutting back 45 calories a day will help you lose 9 pounds in two years.  Two years seems like a crazy number to some but if you are dead set on eating certain foods cutting a smaller amount of calories and adding time to your goal is a great option.   You can have your cake and eat it too! (just drink it with skim milk:)

Thursday

Quick Add!

Just found a new feature on MFP I love.  The quick calorie add.  Tonight we are going to a swim BBQ and will not know the content of my meal beforehand.  When I get home I would tediously add in what I could remember.  For my book club and made a generic menu of foods and called it "book club meal with dessert" and would just try to come close. With this quick add I can just add the calories without logging all the items.  Tonight I figured about 800 calories for dinner and will keep that in mind as I select my choices.  I know that pasta, breads and potatoes are going to cost the most.  I can eat a large hamburger bun for the same calories as a Mars bar - crazy huh?  I will still eat the bun but will cut back on all the other salads common at BBQs.  For others the meat alone with a pile of potato salad in the choice.  The key here is to figure out your real wants and what you are only eating because it is offered or standard.