In my "battle back" mode I have to be careful. My instinct is to either cut back on my eating and to push the exercise or to throw in the towel and take a break for a while.
After a week of not even making my bed, I have come to like the lazy life. I have to mentally take each step during this crucial time. I also can not push it too hard on my workouts or burnout will happen. I have to gradually increase my effort. After a week I will be back up to my normal effort but for now I have learned to be the tortoise instead of the hair.
Today's weight 136.8 yeah tortoise ...just trying to look on the bright side.
Really, I am not looking at a number. 136 is a great number. I would have been overjoyed with 147 when I started all this. I never tried to get to a number, I just tried to watch what I ate and why and then my body took me where it wanted to go.
Last night at the pool I was thinking about how grateful I am to have the experience of both heavy and thin. I appreciate so much my body and what it has done for me. I don't think I would have such reverence if I was born thin. I am grateful for the change in me that brings me such satisfaction. I am so blessed - not for a thin body but for the journey it took to get here. And, if that is the case then I have to be grateful for the ride up on the scale as well. Strange but true.
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