Today's weight 134.4
I guess the whole miracle theory is shot to...just kidding. I was expecting this sort of nonsense. I hate it but expected it. I guess today is really the new day...right?
Breakfast - My chocolate Silk soy shake with 1/2 banana instead of berries.
264 calories
Lunch - out for Indian food. I estimated at 660 calories
Snack - went to the movies (How to Train Your Dragon - loved it!) and skipped the popcorn but overindulged on Skittles along with a Coke Zero.
guessing 425 calories Holy freak Skittles are a killer.
Dinner - tinfoil dinner (lean ground beef, potatoes, carrots), ketchup and about a tsp onion soup mix
380 calories
I am saying I broke even today even though I have about 100 calories to my break even point. I had a great day and that is all that really matters!
Tuesday
Monday
Day 12
Today's weight 133.4
Today is a new day right? When you fall off the wagon you get right back on as quickly as possible. I knew the "morning after" was coming so I planned a light dinner for today. My weight was a surprise. I drank a lot of extra water yesterday and that may have helped. I may have not done as bad as I thought. Or, prayers really do get answered and it is an Easter miracle.
I exercised but not at full capacity. I think the initials P.M.S. are butting into my day with flu like symptoms.
Breakfast - 1 cup raisin bran with 1/2 cup milk
245 calories
Lunch - 2.5oz ham, 1 activia light yogurt, baby carrots, some leftover yams and a handful of jelly beans
423 calories
Snack - 1 banana
Dinner - teriyaki salmon, risotto rice, mixed veggies
472 calories
Dessert - 1 1/2 Nabisco Pinwheels warmed in the microwave mmmm
180 calories
snack- oil popped popcorn with mild cheddar cheese and two servings of Godiva pearls (still the same package)
350 calories
I ended the day at 350 calories below my break even point. Not bad.
Today is a new day right? When you fall off the wagon you get right back on as quickly as possible. I knew the "morning after" was coming so I planned a light dinner for today. My weight was a surprise. I drank a lot of extra water yesterday and that may have helped. I may have not done as bad as I thought. Or, prayers really do get answered and it is an Easter miracle.
I exercised but not at full capacity. I think the initials P.M.S. are butting into my day with flu like symptoms.
Breakfast - 1 cup raisin bran with 1/2 cup milk
245 calories
Lunch - 2.5oz ham, 1 activia light yogurt, baby carrots, some leftover yams and a handful of jelly beans
423 calories
Snack - 1 banana
Dinner - teriyaki salmon, risotto rice, mixed veggies
472 calories
Dessert - 1 1/2 Nabisco Pinwheels warmed in the microwave mmmm
180 calories
snack- oil popped popcorn with mild cheddar cheese and two servings of Godiva pearls (still the same package)
350 calories
I ended the day at 350 calories below my break even point. Not bad.
Sunday
Day 11
Today's weight 133.6
Before I even start logging I am worried about the day. The morning after Easter last year was the first time I had gained weight since my "awakening". I want to enjoy myself, but I know it will come from a weak place rather than a place of control - I can just feel it already. Sometimes a good exercise meditation can help but that probably won't happen today.
I am grateful for the day though and will find other means of pleasure where I can. Easter is one of my favorite holidays. Happy Easter everybody!
So, today I basically ate Ham, 2 rolls, prime rib, mashed potatoes, some salad with dressing, fruit, some trifle and Easter candy. Because I basically just snacked I didn't log but I know I am probably over. We will see the damage tomorrow.
Before I even start logging I am worried about the day. The morning after Easter last year was the first time I had gained weight since my "awakening". I want to enjoy myself, but I know it will come from a weak place rather than a place of control - I can just feel it already. Sometimes a good exercise meditation can help but that probably won't happen today.
I am grateful for the day though and will find other means of pleasure where I can. Easter is one of my favorite holidays. Happy Easter everybody!
So, today I basically ate Ham, 2 rolls, prime rib, mashed potatoes, some salad with dressing, fruit, some trifle and Easter candy. Because I basically just snacked I didn't log but I know I am probably over. We will see the damage tomorrow.
Day 10
Weight 133.8
Breakfast - Silk chocolate blackberry smoothie with protein poweder
252 calories
Lunch - small yogurt and 1/2 slice pizza
263 calories
Snack - 1 mini Laughytaffy, 3 salt water taffys and 1/2 a small candy bar
97 calories
Dinner - ham, candied yams, roll, roasted asparagus
768 calories
Dessert - angel food cake, strawberries with sugar and lite cool whip, plus a plethora of snacks I estimated
503 Calories
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Breakfast - Silk chocolate blackberry smoothie with protein poweder
252 calories
Lunch - small yogurt and 1/2 slice pizza
263 calories
Snack - 1 mini Laughytaffy, 3 salt water taffys and 1/2 a small candy bar
97 calories
Dinner - ham, candied yams, roll, roasted asparagus
768 calories
Dessert - angel food cake, strawberries with sugar and lite cool whip, plus a plethora of snacks I estimated
503 Calories
.
Friday
Day 9
Today's weight 134.2
Breakfast - 1 1/2 cups Raisin Bran and 3/4 cup of milk (I actually measured)
368 calories
Lunch - salad with Romain mix, vine ripe tomato, about 1/2 oz mild cheddar, 1 slice Tyson ham, a few banana pepper rings and 2 TBSP fat free ranch along with a serving of Sunchips and a can of Coke Zero (This is an experiment. Friday afternoons I am dead tired and I want to see if caffeine really effects me.)
287 Calories
Snack - 1 chocolate 90 calorie Fiber Bar, 1 Butterfinger egg and 3 tootsie rolls - blast you Easter egg hunts
202 Calories
Dinner - Cafe Rio pork salad hold the guaq, chips and less than half the dressing. A bite of the kids pizza and about 4 Godiva pearls
800 calories roughly
I cut into my break even calories by 42 calories.
The experiment was inconclusive. I was really busy and didn't have time to be tired:/
Breakfast - 1 1/2 cups Raisin Bran and 3/4 cup of milk (I actually measured)
368 calories
Lunch - salad with Romain mix, vine ripe tomato, about 1/2 oz mild cheddar, 1 slice Tyson ham, a few banana pepper rings and 2 TBSP fat free ranch along with a serving of Sunchips and a can of Coke Zero (This is an experiment. Friday afternoons I am dead tired and I want to see if caffeine really effects me.)
287 Calories
Snack - 1 chocolate 90 calorie Fiber Bar, 1 Butterfinger egg and 3 tootsie rolls - blast you Easter egg hunts
202 Calories
Dinner - Cafe Rio pork salad hold the guaq, chips and less than half the dressing. A bite of the kids pizza and about 4 Godiva pearls
800 calories roughly
I cut into my break even calories by 42 calories.
The experiment was inconclusive. I was really busy and didn't have time to be tired:/
Thursday
Day 8
Today's weight 134
I see a pattern here that I know I need to work on. Since I have lost weight, I get a little frustrated at people that think I starve myself or, more likely, deprive myself of delicious foods in order to stay thin. I have gotten used to that almost sympathetic, half, pity smile that is really more about what is going on inside of the other person's head than about me. The old me would have maybe given that same look. However, now I hate it. Yes, I spend more time "worrying" about what I eat and how I move my body, but I think of that time as a privilege not a burden. This is my health and if I take it for granted then shame on me when it goes away.
Anyway, the pattern. When I get this way I tend to eat more or eat poorly in a kind of sticking out my tongue to these kind of people. Being out here naked and vulnerable I see myself doing the same thing. I want to prove that I can eat more than just a salad and I think over the past week I have demonstrated that too well. Two weeks back from vacation and I am in a little panic over the 134. Isn't that crazy? About this time I see two distinct paths in front of me. One says "cut back, add veggies, plan ahead, no sugar" and the other says "don't panic, it takes time". In another week if the same numbers still exist I doubt what ever path I have taken and not until I take that deep breath and take back my confidence does the scale start to tip in my direction.
Breakfast: fruit smoothie (Silk unsweetened organic soy milk, banana, strawberries, frozen peaches and cherries, frozen OJ, some honey and vanilla)
I put in 300 calories
Lunch - 10 SunChips, 1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese, 1 orange, 5 mini carrots, 1 slice lunch ham
286 calories (I will need a afternoon snack for sure - too little calories)
snack - 1 1/2 servings of Jelly Bellys - not the best snack but I was out and about and it was too late for a filling snack
210 calories
Dinner - Homemade lasagna (love the Barilla lasagna noodles - no boil), salad, Wishbone ranch spray dressing (for 10 more calories I could have had Hidden Valley fat free:()
585 calories
Dessert - 1 cup sugar free Swiss Miss hot cocoa. Plus another serving of Jelly Bellys.
200 calories
Still came in under my break even by 63 calories - yee haw and a bag of jelly beans (oops, already ate one)!
I see a pattern here that I know I need to work on. Since I have lost weight, I get a little frustrated at people that think I starve myself or, more likely, deprive myself of delicious foods in order to stay thin. I have gotten used to that almost sympathetic, half, pity smile that is really more about what is going on inside of the other person's head than about me. The old me would have maybe given that same look. However, now I hate it. Yes, I spend more time "worrying" about what I eat and how I move my body, but I think of that time as a privilege not a burden. This is my health and if I take it for granted then shame on me when it goes away.
Anyway, the pattern. When I get this way I tend to eat more or eat poorly in a kind of sticking out my tongue to these kind of people. Being out here naked and vulnerable I see myself doing the same thing. I want to prove that I can eat more than just a salad and I think over the past week I have demonstrated that too well. Two weeks back from vacation and I am in a little panic over the 134. Isn't that crazy? About this time I see two distinct paths in front of me. One says "cut back, add veggies, plan ahead, no sugar" and the other says "don't panic, it takes time". In another week if the same numbers still exist I doubt what ever path I have taken and not until I take that deep breath and take back my confidence does the scale start to tip in my direction.
Breakfast: fruit smoothie (Silk unsweetened organic soy milk, banana, strawberries, frozen peaches and cherries, frozen OJ, some honey and vanilla)
I put in 300 calories
Lunch - 10 SunChips, 1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese, 1 orange, 5 mini carrots, 1 slice lunch ham
286 calories (I will need a afternoon snack for sure - too little calories)
snack - 1 1/2 servings of Jelly Bellys - not the best snack but I was out and about and it was too late for a filling snack
210 calories
Dinner - Homemade lasagna (love the Barilla lasagna noodles - no boil), salad, Wishbone ranch spray dressing (for 10 more calories I could have had Hidden Valley fat free:()
585 calories
Dessert - 1 cup sugar free Swiss Miss hot cocoa. Plus another serving of Jelly Bellys.
200 calories
Still came in under my break even by 63 calories - yee haw and a bag of jelly beans (oops, already ate one)!
Wednesday
Day 7
Forgot to weight 135.2 later in the morning.
So, before I start can I say this has been a crazy day. Errands here and there and I was never still. I feel fine. I am not hungry or have the munchies at all. I am grateful for that.
Breakfast - I entered about 5 sugar cookies hopefully that is high. When they come in quarters it is hard to tell
400 calories
Lunch - fat free kettle corn and a caffeine free diet Dr Pepper
125 calories
Dinner - Homemade chicken stuffing casserole with veggies
I estimated at 500 but think it is high
night time snack - 7-11 Sugar free apple mango Slurpee (yum) and nachos
550 calories
Dessert - 1 serving of Godiva pearls - still on the same little container.
25 calories
I still have 41 calories to spare above my break even point - not bad for a horrible eating day. I really need to create a plan for Wednesdays:/
So, before I start can I say this has been a crazy day. Errands here and there and I was never still. I feel fine. I am not hungry or have the munchies at all. I am grateful for that.
Breakfast - I entered about 5 sugar cookies hopefully that is high. When they come in quarters it is hard to tell
400 calories
Lunch - fat free kettle corn and a caffeine free diet Dr Pepper
125 calories
Dinner - Homemade chicken stuffing casserole with veggies
I estimated at 500 but think it is high
night time snack - 7-11 Sugar free apple mango Slurpee (yum) and nachos
550 calories
Dessert - 1 serving of Godiva pearls - still on the same little container.
25 calories
I still have 41 calories to spare above my break even point - not bad for a horrible eating day. I really need to create a plan for Wednesdays:/
Day 6
Today's weight 134 after breakfast.
Not a banner breakfast breakfast this morning. I have made a homemade pancake mix on and off over the years but I am newly committed after watching several food documentaries. The syrup I have made only once before but will stick with it. Both are by no means healthy, but they have small to no preservatives and chemicals which is the new goal. I had never logged this breakfast before and a gulp was involved. Although yummy tummy, next time, for myself, I will do things differently.
Tonight we are going out to dinner and to see Five for Fighting in concert. It will be fun but eating out is tricky.
Syrup recipe
1 cup brown sugar
1 cup white sugar
1 cup water
1 tsp vanilla
Cook over medium heat until boiling stirring until sugar is dissolved.
Breakfast - 3 homemade pancakes and 4 tbsp homemade syrup
490 total calories
Lunch - a bowl of homemade chicken noodle soup
MFP says 100 calories I said 150
Snack - sugar cookies (These are like heroine to me. The last two I ate 1/4 at a time thinking I would just have "one more bite"...hah!) About 8 Godiva pearls 25 calories! and four skittles
Dinner -Subway 6" turkey with all the veggies a little low cal mayo, mustard and just a splash of oil and vinegar
320 calories
Dessert - Village Inn piece of pecan delight pie
480 calories
I managed to come in 150 calories under my break even but mentally feel I have maaaybe broken even. Tomorrow's a new day right?
Not a banner breakfast breakfast this morning. I have made a homemade pancake mix on and off over the years but I am newly committed after watching several food documentaries. The syrup I have made only once before but will stick with it. Both are by no means healthy, but they have small to no preservatives and chemicals which is the new goal. I had never logged this breakfast before and a gulp was involved. Although yummy tummy, next time, for myself, I will do things differently.
Tonight we are going out to dinner and to see Five for Fighting in concert. It will be fun but eating out is tricky.
Syrup recipe
1 cup brown sugar
1 cup white sugar
1 cup water
1 tsp vanilla
Cook over medium heat until boiling stirring until sugar is dissolved.
Breakfast - 3 homemade pancakes and 4 tbsp homemade syrup
490 total calories
Lunch - a bowl of homemade chicken noodle soup
MFP says 100 calories I said 150
Snack - sugar cookies (These are like heroine to me. The last two I ate 1/4 at a time thinking I would just have "one more bite"...hah!) About 8 Godiva pearls 25 calories! and four skittles
Dinner -Subway 6" turkey with all the veggies a little low cal mayo, mustard and just a splash of oil and vinegar
320 calories
Dessert - Village Inn piece of pecan delight pie
480 calories
I managed to come in 150 calories under my break even but mentally feel I have maaaybe broken even. Tomorrow's a new day right?
Monday
Day 5
Today's weight 133.8
As you can see I am not on a very regimented schedule. I eat when I am hungry. I long for the earlier days when I basically had six meals a day and a treat was a yogurt or maybe a Skinny Cow, if I was really rebellious. Everyday there just happens to be a dessert on the horizon that I must account for. Either that or my schedule keeps me so busy that I don't notice I am not snacking. I really feel that I have tuned into my body enough that I recognize the signs of hunger, starvation and medicating. Hunger gets its due attention. Starvation requires a high fiber food in addition to my meal (fiber bar or popcorn - good because it takes a while to eat). Medicating is a tricky one. Sometimes it is a lost cause and other times I can handle it. My thought process has become so automatic that I really just depend on it. I trust my body. I have a reverence for it.
I came in 700 calories under my break even. There is a chance that I will make up these calories tomorrow:/
Breakfast - 3/4 cup rolled oats, brown sugar and milk
321 total calories
Lunch - Leftover meatloaf, 1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese, an apple, 1 leftover piece of divinity
438 total calories
Dinner - Chicken fried rice
447 total calories
Dessert - Dipping dots 90 calories
Snack - fiber bar 140 calories and maybe four chips I am not counting one, because I am way under today and two because I over estimate whenever possible for just this occasion.
As you can see I am not on a very regimented schedule. I eat when I am hungry. I long for the earlier days when I basically had six meals a day and a treat was a yogurt or maybe a Skinny Cow, if I was really rebellious. Everyday there just happens to be a dessert on the horizon that I must account for. Either that or my schedule keeps me so busy that I don't notice I am not snacking. I really feel that I have tuned into my body enough that I recognize the signs of hunger, starvation and medicating. Hunger gets its due attention. Starvation requires a high fiber food in addition to my meal (fiber bar or popcorn - good because it takes a while to eat). Medicating is a tricky one. Sometimes it is a lost cause and other times I can handle it. My thought process has become so automatic that I really just depend on it. I trust my body. I have a reverence for it.
I came in 700 calories under my break even. There is a chance that I will make up these calories tomorrow:/
Breakfast - 3/4 cup rolled oats, brown sugar and milk
321 total calories
Lunch - Leftover meatloaf, 1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese, an apple, 1 leftover piece of divinity
438 total calories
Dinner - Chicken fried rice
447 total calories
Dessert - Dipping dots 90 calories
Snack - fiber bar 140 calories and maybe four chips I am not counting one, because I am way under today and two because I over estimate whenever possible for just this occasion.
Sunday
Day 4
Today's weight 133.2
I found my yummy pearls at Kohls but I will be on the lookout for more when I am on the town....looove them! I really need to kick up the veggies I see. I ended the day about 250 calories under my break even. Tonight I have the munchies for something salty but I will resist. Chips or better yet 7-11 nachos. Have I ever mentioned them? They are one of those foods that I eat with sound effects...mmmm.
Breakfast - 2 cups Silk chocolate light soy milk and 4 frozen strawberries. (totally forgot the protein powder and I noticed I was hungry earlier)
Lunch - grilled cheese sandwich on white Grandma Sycamore bread - like dessert I tell ya.
Dinner - Meatloaf, mashed potatoes (no gravy but greek yogurt, salt, pepper and dill weed), mixed veggies (Walmart has great frozen stirfry veggies) and couple of rolls.
Dessert/snack - maybe 12 calories worth of Godiva pearls...AAAaaah!
some homemade divinity (I craved this with my third and my older son
was remembering the good ol' days when we had it a couple of times a
week)
There is an article in this months Vogue that is practically plagiarism of this blog. Sure the doctor quoted has her PHD but still. It is called Slow Food and talks all about experiencing your food and consciously eating. I looked for it online to no avail. Check it out if you get a chance.
I found my yummy pearls at Kohls but I will be on the lookout for more when I am on the town....looove them! I really need to kick up the veggies I see. I ended the day about 250 calories under my break even. Tonight I have the munchies for something salty but I will resist. Chips or better yet 7-11 nachos. Have I ever mentioned them? They are one of those foods that I eat with sound effects...mmmm.
Breakfast - 2 cups Silk chocolate light soy milk and 4 frozen strawberries. (totally forgot the protein powder and I noticed I was hungry earlier)
Lunch - grilled cheese sandwich on white Grandma Sycamore bread - like dessert I tell ya.
Dinner - Meatloaf, mashed potatoes (no gravy but greek yogurt, salt, pepper and dill weed), mixed veggies (Walmart has great frozen stirfry veggies) and couple of rolls.
Dessert/snack - maybe 12 calories worth of Godiva pearls...AAAaaah!
some homemade divinity (I craved this with my third and my older son
was remembering the good ol' days when we had it a couple of times a
week)
There is an article in this months Vogue that is practically plagiarism of this blog. Sure the doctor quoted has her PHD but still. It is called Slow Food and talks all about experiencing your food and consciously eating. I looked for it online to no avail. Check it out if you get a chance.
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